“i hate myself” (Part One)

Hello friends!

About a month ago, I was excitedly waiting in line for a Hillsong Young and Free concert. My mom, sisters, and I had been waiting for four hours, our feet dying and slightly dehydrated.

When we finally got inside and Hillsong came out and gave us an awesome intro, I was ecstatic. I was jumping and worshiping like never before.

Keep in mind that the venue I was in had no seats and was jam packed, so everyone is standing shoulder to shoulder. There was no ceiling, so the Florida heat mixed with sweaty people? Not a good combination!

So anyway, I bumped into the girl next to me,and she gave me the meanest look, the kind that makes you wanna shrivel into a ball and just stay there (I know y’all know what I’m talking about)! Right them and there, with the mixture of humidity and dizziness my family and I were feeling, we decided to leave a bit early.

Later on at home, I realized I was most likely having a heat stroke and thanks to my moms quick thinking, we got home quickly!

Soon after I got home I starting doing something very dangerous. I started thinking about all the times I’ve done something embarrassing and the way people reacted to it. These thoughts began to spiral and started this cycle of self doubt, and soon enough I realized I spent about thirty minutes just hating on myself!

This is something I struggle with daily: thinking that everyone hates me, or thinks I’m stupid.  I could literally just sit down and go over everything that’s wrong with me. But recently I’ve been learning to draw closer to the Truth, which is in the Bible.

The Truth is this:

  1. God created man in His own IMAGE! That means God, who is perfect and makes no mistakes, took the time to craft you from scratch. You are not a mistake. 

Genesis 1:27- So God created man in his own image, in the image of God He created him; male and female He created them.

2. Instead of focusing on whats “wrong” with you, focus on who lives INSIDE of you! (Spoiler Alert: It’s the Holy Spirit!) It renews, transforms, and inspires your mind and soul. Make sure to make time for the Holy Spirit in your life, and when you do, you won’t have time for hating yourself or thinking that anyone else does.

Romans 8:31-32- What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things?

When you hate yourself or think constantly about who hates you, opportunities will pass you by, memories that could have been created would have never happened, and the growth you could be making in Christ is halted. Hating yourself is not of God, it is of the world. Society loves to tell us to ‘keep us in check’ and remind us of reasons to hate ourselves but the honest-to-God truth is that you have so many reasons to love yourself! And the number one reason, is that God created YOU!

-Ariana!

Remember, Honey is sweet 🙂

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4 thoughts on ““i hate myself” (Part One)

  1. I love this and thanks to holly spirit for his guidance. ‘God does not make junk!’ By Ian T.
    As the Ultimate Designer and Engineer He has created you and I, anew in Christ Jesus.he love us before we’re born.

    I love you so much Ariana, and so proud of the young woman you are becoming in Jesus name.

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  2. Ariana! It is commendable to read that a young girl like you is connected to god and your blogs are filed with positivism. Keep up the good work and I will look forward to reading your future blogs.

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